Tuesday, July 3, 2012

God won't let me go naked

Five months ago, i had just started dieting. i wasn't entirely sure how it was going to go or if i'd be successful, but i was determined. i remember saying to my mom that i didn't know what i'd do if i shrunk out of all my clothes. i can't afford to buy new ones just because the older ones don't fit anymore. she assured me that God wouldn't let me go naked.

i've been volunteering with a thing my church does called "the closet." it's a place where anyone can drop off clothing or linen donations, much like goodwill, but instead of selling the items cheaply, everything is free to anyone who needs it. they have shopping days 4 times a year and everyone who comes in can take what they need for their family. i love this organization. i've donated tons of our clothes and brooke and i work there - sorting, organizing, carrying, hanging, painting, helping customers, etc. 

this place has also been a wonderful source of clothes for us this year. i can't wear anything from last summer unless i'm able to tailor it. i've cut down a few things, but not everything can be altered by me, by hand and i really needed a lot of new things.

today i got to do some shopping in there and i got a whole bunch of stuff, including some things for brooke and i to wear to my sister's wedding next month. i even got a pair of brand new, gorgeous heels that are exactly what i need for the couple dressy things i own. and might i also mention that the quality of my clothing has improved tremendously since i started getting second hand stuff. i've never even tried anything on in ann taylor or banana republic or some of the expensive department stores, but now i've got all that pretty, high quality stuff hanging in my closet and it was either free or really cheap from goodwill.

on a separate, but related note, i started doing P90X three weeks ago. a few months ago, i never would have been able to do most of it, but i'm keeping up fairly well, though there's room for improvement. i've lost 54 pounds now and i think i'm physically stronger than i've ever been in my life. free weights are new to me, but i like them. it's kind of cool to be able to see muscles popping in my arms and legs. and i'm discovering that i have bones that i'd almost forgotten about. collar bones, shoulder bones, hips, ribs. so exciting.

i feel like my life has gotten bigger as my body has gotten smaller. when i was fat, i wanted to be physically invisible. i wanted to wear baggy, plain, uninteresting clothes to avoid drawing the eyes of anyone i didn't know. i avoided doing fun or silly things that might cause my fat to jiggle. 

so many things have changed for me internally as i've changed externally that i'm wondering why it took me so long to do it. then again, the shrinking world sneaks in, a little piece at a time, not all at once, so that you almost don't notice it until you've gotten used to it. and i wouldn't appreciate the changes as much if i hadn't lived life in chubbytown for ten years.

i'm so glad that God didn't want me to look frumpy or go naked.

14 comments:

  1. I don't know why I am still dragging me feet about taking my life back, but reading things posts like this reaffirm that I need to soon.

    So glad God has a plan for you... now maybe if he could have a low cost plan that includes a new Coach bag for me??

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  2. congrats!! i love second hand clothes and hand-me-downs, they're honestly the best!! I always manage to get at least a bag of stuff every year, one for myself and one for my boys. HUGE load off the clothing budget!!

    I know what you mean about the physical invisibility lol!

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  3. Congratulations on losing all that weight Sherry, that's incredible and you should be so proud of yourself. It's good to hear that you got those wedding clothes sorted out too and that they're not trashy or inferior at all.

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  4. As the self proclaimed mayor of Chubbytown, I'm sorry to see you go, but nevertheless happy for you.

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  5. Fifty-four pounds! That's incredible! Good for you. You're smart to work at it now, 'cause it sure gets more difficult as you get older.

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  6. That is awesome! great clothes , great bod, happy person.

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  7. Congrats on slimming down. Very happy post to read, and I'm glad life is working so well for you.

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  8. When I saw the title I was looking forward to pictures of a heavenly struggle featuring you trying to dis-robe and God throwing blankets over you.

    I cleaned my glasses for nothing!

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  9. Damn! I was hoping you'd post some pics of your fun new clothes! FASHION SHOW! The reason you didn't start sooner, was because you weren't meant to yet. I'm a firm believer that most things happen when they're supposed to happen. It's nearly impossible to have a large, successful weight loss if one doesn't reach the bottom point--that point whereby they are SICK OF IT, and can't take anymore.

    It is exciting. Very exciting. My bathing suit today looked like total hell. Way too big. I need a new one. But you're right: who can afford the new clothes?!?

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  10. I am so excited for you! Really really excited! Live it up girl, and go get some free clothes! Woot!

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  11. God must be a Presbyterian.
    NOTE: I'm not really sure what that means. It just sounded funnier-and far less creepy-than "God must be a Scientologist."

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  12. I'm so proud of you.....I love you and I miss you!

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  13. You are an inspiration. And even though I bet you look FABULOUS naked, I'm so glad you found amazing clothes that you feel good in.

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  14. So inspiring... when we change our attitude, our lives change accordingly. I am a new reader, I will follow you

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