changes a-comin

we've got a lot of changes going on right now. chris has been sick a lot & extremely stressed out. he's had the gamut of tests run & we're trying to figure out how to deal with all the challenges this has created. at the same time, things in the land of home school have been less than ideal and many, many tears have been shed. there are other things too, but those are the low highlights.

so we've decided to move to another city in another state, about 6 hrs from here. we're moving to where our families live. it seems like it's long overdue because for the past few years, our world has been shrinking around us until we mainly exist in our little house with just us. we have some friends, but we don't get to see them often & with no car every evening, i can't go out to spend time with people. i'm a social person & i miss human interaction terribly. i feel like i've been drowning as i've been swimming spastically in circles for a while now & it needs to change.

hopefully this move is exactly what we need to put us back onto a good path. hopefully chris can find a new job in the field he has chosen, but hasn't yet become employed, once we get to an area of the country that's bigger and has a better job market. there's a ton to be done in the next 4 weeks to get us ready & get us out of here, but i've vowed that this will be our most organized move yet. i've already started cleaning, organizing & purging as much clutter as i can to make it easier on moving day.

as much as i've been feeling overwhelmed and stressed, there are still some very bright spots for me. this morning, chris & brooke were watching a documentary about a sunken ship being recovered from 1000 ft below. i heard brooke ask chris, "why do they always call boats 'she'?" and his reply warmed my heart. he told her that boats and sometimes cars or other similar objects are called females because they're beautiful & valuable to the men who own them and talk about them. he said that women are powerful and bring joy and they are cherished and beloved by their men and so as a way of complimenting their women, they call their machines girls too.

i never would have come up with that explanation if she'd asked me that same question. it made me feel again how happy i am to have a man who loves and values me and who is teaching our daughter that she is a thing of beauty and strength and a treasure to be treated as such through her whole life.