Thursday, July 28, 2011

pms roller coaster x2

due to my husband getting laid off from his new job this week after only being there for 7 weeks, i'm feeling like i'm on a roller coaster. that made me think of this post from more than a year ago & when i read it, i thought it was still funny, so i'm re-posting it for those of you who haven't read it before. beware to you mens ~ graphic mental pictures ahead.

i have pms today & i'm fluctuating between fury, tears & hysteria that could tip toward funny or mania at any moment. ever since i was 11 i've been ragging & dealing with the drama of hormonal flux at this time of the month & i think i'm ready to order up some menopause.

i wish we could make men understand what it's like to go through this. you seem like a pretty rational human most of the time, but once a month you go through a change that makes you turn into a freaky, irrational version of yourself that even you don't want to be around.

you wake up feeling pretty normal and then you kick your toe into the leg of the bed & stumble backwards into the dresser where you smash your butt into the corner of the top & then proceed to fall on the floor & laugh hysterically. you feel like you've broken 2 toe bones & there's a triangular shaped dent in your ass cheek that feels like it's spurting blood, but all you can do is laugh till tears pour down your face. you realize that it's not actually funny to hurt yourself, especially first thing in the morning, but it's still really funny because you're rolling on the floor w/ a bloody butt & broken toe bones and your eyes still crusted shut from sleep. and then you laugh some more until you can't breathe & your family is standing around you asking why you're in fetal position on the ground in the dark, rocking & making a lot of noise, but you can't answer properly, you can only sputter out things like "broke butt" and "toes... crunched" and when they look at you strangely it just seems funnier.

eventually you compose yourself & make it through an extra large breakfast, but then the cat starts meowing for her food & she keeps it up & keeps it up & keeps it up. you put food in her bowl & show it to her, but she keeps harassing you until you suddenly burst forth with a barbaric yawlp from the pit of your guts. there are no words, just an echoing bellow. the cat races off to safer havens & then you notice your kid's face & it's staring at you with concern & trepidation because apparently mom has been transformed into an unpredictable alien today & can't be trusted to act normally. you want that look to go away & for the kid not to be nervous around you, so you give her a bowl full of marshmallows & honey for breakfast so that she'll like you again.

you go into the bathroom to deal with lady things at some point in the day & you swear that when you sit down, you can hear a gurgle, gurgle, glug coming from your nether regions & then there's a flood where you think your innards are being ripped unceremoniously out through your vagina. you flush quickly because you might need the extra room in the bowl since you're pretty sure you're loosing about 16 lbs of slush as you sit there. then it takes about 5 wet wipes and half a roll of toilet paper to begin to feel reasonably fresh (if such a thing is possible at that stage) and you proceed to wash your hands with a brillo pad & boiling water just to make sure you're adequately sanitary again.

eventually you sit down for some book reading time with your kid because you're still trying to prove that you are a good mommy, in spite of the alien influence that you've been experiencing in spurts throughout the day. you're reading a book about a seeing eye dog puppy in training & suddenly you find yourself crying. tears are flowing & you can't even read aloud anymore because of the sadness that has gripped your heart over the broken hearted child in the book who has to give her puppy away after the first year of training has come to completion. how can anything be more sad in this cruel, cruel world?!

you can't proceed with the book, so you flip on the tv for something funny to brighten your spirits. you come across the "fresh prince of belaire" and feel pretty good because it's just starting and you won't miss anything. you sing along with the intro, getting your groove back & feeling a little cool because you still remember all the words. you're smiling & your heart gets lighter for a few minutes. then will's dad leaves him to go out on the road & lets him down once again and you feel the water works start back up. you sniffle & try to hold back the tears as you gaze into will smith's child-like face as he watches his dad leave. how could anyone be so mean to him? why oh why would a parent ever leave their child? you hug your kid close & snuffle into her neck a little bit & whisper that you'll never leave her, not for anything.

then a commercial comes on for charmin toilet paper & it's those chubby cartoon bears. just looking at the way the mother bear monitors & assists with her baby bears' bathroom habits & teaches them that less is more when you have good toilet tissue in hand, is like balm to your soul. your tears transform from tears of sorrow to tears of joy because you're remembering when your own little one was so small & adorable with her little chunky butt. when she smiled at you like you were the sun and the moon and thought you knew all things. and then you move back into the realm of sorrow again because you feel your kid pulling away from you as you blow snot bubbles into her hair. that kid's not a baby anymore, she's a medium sized person now who's pretty sure you don't know all and that her opinions are way more valuable than yours. and before long she won't need you and she'll leave home & get married and have sex, and that's just more than you can stomach.

you stumble clumsily back into the bathroom for some privacy & to give yourself some time to recuperate from all the chaos inside you. you have a repeat from the last bathroom trip, only this time you realize that you're out of tampons and pads. and you need one really, really badly. so you decide to stick half a roll of toilet paper into your underwear to serve as a blood buffer between yourself & the world & then walk out bow-legged. you go to the store, still with the toilet paper roll in your pants and when someone looks at you oddly because your pants are lumpy & you're walking like you've dropped a load, you start laughing hysterically. uncontrollable laughter that has you doubled up over the orange juice cooler with your legs crossed and a saliva party bubbling from your mouth.

you make it to the register but realize that you left your debit card in your pants from yesterday. you've got a little cash in the bottom of your purse, so you dig around frantically for a couple minutes while the people behind you start making huffing sounds and talking about you amongst themselves. you start crying again when you give up digging and you're still $1.04 short of your total. you ask the cashier if you can open the box & just take out a couple tampons to buy individually. he looks fearful and discombobulated as he calls over a manager on the loud speaker.

the manager is a man too. he eyeballs you nervously as he shuffles over. you ask him weepily if you can please just buy a couple tampons from the box because you don't have enough money & because you can't very well go on with your life with a roll of toilet paper in your underwear because as it turns out, it's not nearly as absorbent as that charmin commercial advertised. the people in line are mumbling more loudly & the manager and 17 yr old cashier look at you like you've gone completely mad. the mgr rips open the box himself & hands you a handful of the things and tells you it'll be no charge and tries to usher you quickly to the door. you're so relieved that you cry tears of joy. you want to hug him, but as you go in for the embrace, he quickly backs away, looking terrified like you have leprosy and aids and ebola and more than a little dose of coo-coo.

so you take your courtesy tampons & vacate the premises quickly and head back home for another round on the pms roller coaster.

15 comments:

  1. OH that is too funny. I remember those days so well; even though it's been at least 15 years since my last period!~

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  2. Sherilin, I have to admit that I skipped some sentences there out of male queasiness and wussiness, etc. I can't help but feel, and I may be egocentric here (of course I am!) that you were inspired by my post to rebut that view of women with the downside of being female. In any event, it was a great post from what I read of it!

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  3. Oh, and by the way, I notice that The LG Report is not in your right-hand column despite Laughing My Abs Off being featured on The LG Report. That just shows that we're not mean, petty and vindictive...just misogynistic! (I'm not sure if I spelled that right and am not going to check it now....) You do have a good line-up over there though, I can't criticize your choices....

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  4. What really pisses me off is how often we must deal with this. 28 days?! WTF? I purposefully do not take birth control pills because left to my own devices, my body doesn't have a period for about every 35 days, and that extra week is freakin worth it. TMI, sorry.

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  5. Hey, how come this makes me ANGRY ALL OVER AGAIN at how over-priced that womanly sh*t that we NEED is?!? Oh brother. You know I could relate to this woman, and yes, I've made the homemade paraphernalia out of a wad of toilet paper, and it so doesn't work and is so uncomfortable.

    Luckily my weepy bad feelings usually depart the moment the scarlet tide trickles down through the mountains.

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  6. I'm sorry about your husband's job too. super duper stressful.

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  7. YIKES!!!!!! I'll take piss boners and being called to the chalkboard by Sister Caligula while sporting a pup tent in my trousers (hey, Pam's new bobbies were spectacular) anyday.
    On a serious note (well, MORE serious), he got laid off after only seven weeks?? Double yikes!! Be of good cheer-I've learned that things usually happen for a reason and life will work itself out.
    For example, my hair may have turned gray, but Pam's boobies hang around her ankles now.

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  8. Oh girl..... With a big poochie lip I say that I am sorry to hear about your husbands job. That sucks.

    On the lighter side.... moving back to TN???? :)

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  9. Oh, I'm so sorry about your husband and his job. What a vivid post! I guess I was lucky as I never had mood swings and all that good stuff.

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  10. Hate to admit it, but I too have been there with the wad of toilet paper.
    My husband tells me pms is no excuse for acting a certain way. Yeah whatever. Somehow I don't think he'd be pleasant to be around if he had it.

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  11. Oh boy, this describes me to a "T." Love it!

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  12. I'm here NOW. Seriously. Wrote about it yesterday. It's like being a teenager again, and I so sucked at that the first time. I burst into tears four times yesterday and twice already today. This is completely unfair.

    Pearl

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  13. So sorry about your husband's job. I'll be praying he find something fast. It's gotta be hard.

    So, I gotta say, this made me laugh and get furious at the same time, because of all the crap we have to go through. All of us have been there! It blows!!!

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  14. So sorry to hear about the job situation. I'm sure something good will come from this setback.

    Thanks for re-posting this post. I needed a good laugh this morning!

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  15. Wine is the best Mydol ever!! Sorry to hear about hubby and the job... that just sucks. Happened to me and it bites.

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