can i just start by saying UGH? i'm having one of those homeschooling mom days where it sucks to have to be the mom & the teacher because both the offspring & the student are getting all over your nerves! there seems to be a lack of cooperation & willingness to obey, no matter what i say. so it's time to stop saying & start doing.
i came downstairs shortly after that & found her using google to try to find pictures of dogs that look like her most precious fetch doggy, but alas, she's not allowed to use the computer, so now we've reached a place that i don't even have a label for. double red? minus red? i don't know, but she lost another smiley face.
now she wants me to sit & read a book to her so that i can make her feel better, because, you know, she's lost the most precious piece of her heart & doesn't know how to function. i will not. she knows how to read & if the book will make it better, then she needs to read it to herself. i didn't make her bad choices. i didn't throw her clothes on the floor. and it's not my job to soothe her heart right now.
this is one of those days when i wish that for at least a portion of the day i could turn her over to someone else to deal with. let them figure out what to do with her frantic need to change costumes all day. and her opinion that she should get to decide what her school day should look like and what her assignments should be. maybe they have some ideas that i haven't thought of. but then again, no one could love her like i do. no one could be as delighted as i am when she runs into the room in a worm suit asking me to film her while she slithers around the kitchen floor. no one can know how much it means when this kid looks me in the eye & says, "even when you discipline me & make me so mad, i still love you." so i guess it's time for me to go soothe her little aching heart. she did her part by going away & reading the book to herself. now i'll do my part by going up & squishing her with kisses & hugs & thank her for pulling herself back up from the pit of despair. some days that can be really, really hard.